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A still small voice spake unto me, ‘Thou art so full of misery, Were it not better not to be?’
Then to the still small voice I said;
To which the voice did urge reply;
‘An inner impulse rent the veil
‘He dried his wings: like gauze they grew;
I said, ‘When first the world began,
‘She gave him mind, the lordliest
Thereto the silent voice replied;
‘This truth within thy mind rehearse,
‘Think you this mould of hopes and fears
It spake, moreover, in my mind:
Then did my response clearer fall:
To which he answer’d scoffingly;
‘Or will one beam be less intense,
I would have said, ‘Thou canst not know,’
Again the voice spake unto me:
‘Thine anguish will not let thee sleep,
I said, ‘The years with change advance:
‘Some turn this sickness yet might take,
I wept, ‘Tho’ I should die, I know
‘And men, thro’ novel spheres of thought
‘Yet,’ said the secret voice, ‘some time,
‘Not less swift souls that yearn for light,
‘Not less the bee would range her cells,
I said that ‘all the years invent;
‘Were this not well, to bide mine hour,
‘The highest-mounted mind,’ he said,
‘Will thirty seasons render plain
‘Or make that morn, from his cold crown
‘Forerun thy peers, thy time, and let
‘Thou hast not gain’d a real height,
‘’Twere better not to breathe or speak,
‘Moreover, but to seem to find
I said, ‘When I am gone away,
‘This is more vile,’ he made reply,
‘Sick art thou–a divided will
‘Do men love thee? Art thou so bound
‘The memory of the wither’d leaf
‘Go, vexed Spirit, sleep in trust;
‘Hard task, to pluck resolve,’ I cried,
‘Nay–rather yet that I could raise
‘When, wide in soul and bold of tongue,
‘I sung the joyful Pæan clear,
‘Waiting to strive a happy strife,
‘Some hidden principle to move,
‘As far as might be, to carve out
‘To search thro’ all I felt or saw,
‘At least, not rotting like a weed,
‘To pass, when Life her light withdraws,
‘In some good cause, not in mine own,
‘Whose eyes are dim with glorious tears,
‘Then dying of a mortal stroke,
‘Yea!’ said the voice, ‘thy dream was good,
‘If Nature put not forth her power
‘Then comes the check, the change, the fall,
‘Yet hadst thou, thro’ enduring pain,
‘Thou hadst not between death and birth
‘That men with knowledge merely play’d,
‘Much less this dreamer, deaf and blind,
‘For every worm beneath the moon
‘Cry, faint not: either Truth is born
‘Cry, faint not, climb: the summits slope
‘Sometimes a little corner shines,
‘I will go forward, sayest thou,
‘If straight thy track, or if oblique,
‘And owning but a little more
‘Than angels. Cease to wail and brawl!
‘O dull, one-sided voice,’ said I,
‘I know that age to age succeeds,
‘I cannot hide that some have striven,
‘Who, rowing hard against the stream,
‘But heard, by secret transport led,
‘Which did accomplish their desire,
‘He heeded not reviling tones,
‘But looking upward, full of grace,
The sullen answer slid betwixt:
I said, ‘I toil beneath the curse,
‘And that, in seeking to undo
‘Or that this anguish fleeting hence,
‘For I go, weak from suffering here:
‘Consider well,’ the voice replied,
‘Will he obey when one commands?
‘His palms are folded on his breast:
‘His lips are very mild and meek:
‘His little daughter, whose sweet face
‘His sons grow up that bear his name,
‘He will not hear the north-wind rave,
‘High up the vapours fold and swim:
‘If all he dark, vague voice,’ I said,
‘The sap dries up: the plant declines.
‘I found him when my years were few;
‘From grave to grave the shadow crept:
‘The simple senses crown’d his head:
‘Why, if man rot in dreamless ease,
‘Who forged that other influence,
‘He owns the fatal gift of eyes,
‘Here sits he shaping wings to fly:
‘That type of Perfect in his mind
‘He seems to hear a Heavenly Friend,
‘The end and the beginning vex
‘He knows a baseness in his blood
‘Heaven opens inward, chasms yawn,
‘Ah! sure within him and without,
‘But thou canst answer not again.
‘The doubt would rest, I dare not solve.
As when a billow, blown against,
‘Where wert thou when thy father play’d
‘A merry boy they call’d him then,
‘Before the little ducts began
‘Who took a wife, who rear’d his race,
‘A life of nothings, nothing-worth,
‘These words,’ I said, ‘are like the rest;
‘But if I grant, thou mightst defend
‘Yet how should I for certain hold,
‘I cannot make this matter plain,
‘It may be that no life is found,
‘As old mythologies relate,
‘As here we find in trances, men
‘So might we, if our state were such
‘But, if I lapsed from nobler place,
‘Some vague emotion of delight
‘Or if thro’ lower lives I came–
‘I might forget my weaker lot;
‘And men, whose reason long was blind,
‘Much more, if first I floated free,
‘For memory dealing but with time,
‘Moreover, something is or seems,
‘Of something felt, like something here;
The still voice laugh’d. ‘I talk,’ said he,
‘But thou,’ said I, ‘hast missed thy mark,
‘Why not set forth, if I should do
‘Whatever crazy sorrow saith,
‘’Tis life, whereof our nerves are scant,
I ceased, and sat as one forlorn.
And I arose, and I released
Like soften’d airs that blowing steal,
On to God’s house the people prest:
One walk’d between his wife and child,
The prudent partner of his blood
And in their double love secure,
These three made unity so sweet,
I blest them, and they wander’d on:
A second voice was at mine ear,
As from some blissful neighbourhood,
A little hint to solace woe,
Like an Æolian harp that wakes
Such seem’d the whisper at my side:
So heavenly-toned, that in that hour
To feel, altho’ no tongue can prove,
And forth into the fields I went,
I wonder’d at the bounteous hours,
I wonder’d, while I paced along:
And all so variously wrought,
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